lizzie siddal

– Gabriel’s Inferno (01, after first 18 chapter) –

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I surrendered myself to the idea of buying the novel from British Heart Foundation for one pound, after days and nights of consideration and hesitation.

I had googled the novel and given a lot of thought on what extent it would worth my one pound, I want the money to be spent on a book I knew I would read and lost my heart in the duration.

The novel as a matter of fact, was very much beyond me in almost every level.

Firstly I was amazed by the author’s patience on carving Dante’s essence in between the pages, from the whispers between lovers to academic debates. Even there might be questions on accuracy, but having such patience to do so was rather amazing if I may say so.

Secondly I was surprised by the way things went in the pages so far, Gabriel Emerson the Dante Specialist came to scene as a man with bad manners, often found himself in some foul positions. He was also slowly revealed as the pages progressed to be a man with terrible past, the kind of men who you would despice – a jack-ass, basically. Yet he seemed wanting to become better for Julia, a woman who he deemed to be a woman too precious to be contaminated.

Thirdly there were two things I was reminded of, first the relationship between Gabriel and Julia reminded me of Japanese televisions, which often have stories of students falling for teachers (or other way round). The other was Dante Gabriel Rossetti, a man equally obsessed with Dante’s story as Emerson himself. They both deemed their lover to be the muse and salvation, while Emerson tried his best to be honest and earnest to Julia, DGR was very much underserving to Lizzie Siddal for constantly being a magnet for women.

But yes it was only 8 or 9 hours since I bought the book and I already read 18 chapters…As an opinion, I think this book actually worth greater attention compared to 50 Shades of Grey, at least Emerson seemed less abusive compared to Christian Grey.


– After Lizzie –

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Finished reading Lucinda Hawksley’s book on Lizzie Siddal at last,

I believed it took me only three days to finished the book, which by far was quite a fast speed. I would also class it as a good omen, as only books I sincerely liked to bits would be able to achieve such high-flying speed. Normally, I would be slow in reading – from maybe months to god knows how long.

The book captured the key moments of Lizzie Siddal and the world she was in: being asked to model for paintings, associating herself with Pre-Raphaelite painters, having John Ruskin as her patron and of course her turbulent relationship with famous painter Dante Rossetti.

I found the turbulent relationship she had with Rossetti was the most fascinating of the whole book – Lizzie and Dante were both not just headstrong and creative, it was also shown that they have made a habit of abusing each other (Rossetti by affairs, Siddal by emotional blackmail & ill-health) but bounded to each other in either romantically fate, or in a reality side – lack of options for L.S. to freely choose any man to marry and the reputation business. Their possessive nature also caused them great deal of problems, and as a result made work harder to be progressed. There were also notes on difficulties to live in Lizzie’s period, including stigma of suicide, difficulties to give birth to a healthy baby and keep them survived.

But of course their life-consuming love indeed brought them legacy in not just artwork, but for the world to remember as long as they live. Especially Lizzie, her beauty would always be remembered through paintings she modeled, along with the tale of her romance with Dante Rossetti.

p.s. must admit Lucinda Hawksley’s writing not just flown like water, but it would make your gripping onto the book, as there would (was) always something going on in Lizzie’s short life.


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– Lizzie Siddal –


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Currently reading “Lizzie Siddal: The Tragedy of a Pre-Raphaelite Supermodel” by Lucinda Hawksley, while “Blonde” by Joyce Carol Oates and Alain de Botton are in hiatus on the shelves.

I have always been fascinated by Lizzie’s beauty without knowing how and why, but I have a strong suspicions that she was being presented in the paintinga she modelled for as a figure of holiness and goddess-like. Therefore I bought the book to read more of her life, especially her difficulties to progress in society.

Her romance with Dante Rossetti was also a fascinating story too, the story reminded me how some actresses have the world who loved them, but the one person they wanted the love from had eyes on someone else and they could do nothing toward such as turning things around.

I shall read some more & let you know later about the book, but the author wrote with grace, words flow like water, helped people engaged with it.

P.s. Recently heard on B.Cu. found a new girlfriend with a name: Sophie Hunter. She was from a background that anyone would envy, I was happy he found someone, yet found it hard not to envy S.Hu’s background…


Have been ill and been stuck in other matters for a while, didn’t feel the energy to write posts. However in the duration of the illness, I caught myself back at the emotion I had when I was very passionate about story-writing.

In the past I wrote many strange stories – mostly murder mystery and suspense, but for six years I was put off from writing anymore story, as I was struggling to deal with my grammar skills left a huge flaw on my writing…Anyway, the story would be very much base on the things I have experiences, things I studied during my life time so far – with fictional characters.

There are four main characters for the story…

1, Josephine Jean Rhys – in my mind she’s a woman of strong artistic essence, the first thing that came into my mind was that she has a long red hair like Lily Cole or Florence Welch. Character on the other hand would be someone quite on guard from others, but gradually warm when getting to know…also, a huge fan of vintage-style clothing!

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2. Dorothy Chang Hoi Yee – There are some elements of myself within the story: tough; independent and observant (I like to think so anyway), but of course she would be the “better version” of myself, I based her character mostly from Nana Osaki from “NANA” (comic from Ai Yazawa) – whom I can relate deeply into.



3. Agatha Northup – Whenever I thought of this character, the first person that entered my mind was  Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie, the essence of intelligence. At the same time I was quite enchanted by her stories through her ted talks on “A single story”, while she also share the fierce temper on inequality – like Maya Angelou. However I was at most times, can picture her empathy with the world – like Florence Nightingale.

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4. Alice Daphne Morrison – In my memory she’s the type of girl that everyone envies (especially in beauty, like Toni Morrison’s “The Bluest Eye”), clever but feeling trapped from all those stereotype or advantages that come along with it. There is a kind of anger within her, on her role that came along with her gender and race…



Well that will be for now. 😀